Jim made a post just in my honor. Bitter Ben messaged me on Twitter. Simon checks in with me every few days on Twitter. Alex from OnlyBadChiHere spent the afternoon with me a few days ago. Sandi at FTYD texts me. Aaron aka Peckapalooza talks to me via Snapchat. Soochie aka LilRant talks to me on Instagram all the time. Noorain from The Plate Memoirs does too. Danny, our favorite inspirational blogger emails me from time to time to ask after me. And my darling friend Queeze aka Acquiescent72 also emails me. I’m sure that I’m forgetting some of you. I know that folks are still posting comments on my blog, which I’ve been very remiss in keeping up with.
I want to let you know how much this all means to me. I’m floored be the outpouring of love, kindness, caring, concern, and friendship you have all shown me over the past few months.
When I began this blog, I had the intention of it being for humorous reasons. I hadn’t been diagnosed with a terminal, incurable disease. Granted, it was already ravaging my body, but I was as yet blissfully unaware of its presence.
Things took a frightening turn in my life over the summer. They’ve only gotten worse. I’m going to be frank with you. I’m struggling with a very deep depression now. I’ve given up with my erotica hobby blog, and I’ve forsaken this blog too because it was supposed to be funny, and my funny bone is broken.
I love the kind words you all have to say, but at the same time, they are overwhelming and painful reminders of what I’m going through.
I hope to finally start chemo in the new year.
I just want you all to know that I’m still alive. I still love you all so very much. 💖
I wish you all a wonderful holiday season. I hope that 2016 is a fantastic year for everyone.
I’m not sure if I can come back to see your responses to this post. It may take me some time. Bear with me please.
I do cherish the relationships I’ve made here on WP. I’m sorry I’ve slipped into hermitude. It’s a defense and coping mechanism for me right now.
Here I am. I’m not smiling much these days. But see, I’m alive. Still going crazy with my hair before I lose it all to chemo.